Loathing The Leeches Life

Feeling the resilient foundation,
Underneath my unsettling feet,
For I hoped to be given,
Only for what I gave,
But neither my soul were replenished,
With the fountain of love.

For underneath my feet,
Shook the heaven's sky,
For I hoped to be told,
Only the truth of your emotions,
But neither my body was returned,
Returned to the state of bliss.

For I still am me,
The me for the past year,
The me who was fooled,
And the me who remained hope.

I can never comprehend,
Your desires for the imperfect perfection,
Yet all I gave you was what you said you desired,
But all you saw was my fall,
My inadequacies,
My weaknesses and my ugliness.

You were respected my love,
You were the one I followed,
I carried you above my wings of joy,
Heavy you were but I rather be trampled,
But trampled without compassion was your gift for me.

He is not in any way more intelligent than what you have,
For he requested your money but I rejected yours,
For he gave you a filth of class yet I am a royalty,
For he is my opposite,
My disgust and my assured revulsion.

I am shocked by you,
You are the person I wish I had never knew.

Bruno Mars - It Will Rain

I relived the nightmare I dreaded
I guess it's only me I have to be with to be happy
For happiness is about changing for the person you love

All Dejavu

How many more days should it be?
When my smile masks the tears i dropped
For i request what's simple
But by thee so difficult to fulfill
I lost the believe along the way
As I was deviated by the secrets
Please understand where I have been and heading
I don't wish to relive this all over again